I  am healed

Mrs. Ratna Taylor

On May 2017 I had colonoscopy, they found 2 polips (1 regular polip and the other 1 the polip pre cancer). On June 2017 I also had mammogram. Usually its done every 2 years, since I read on the internet that radiation can cause cancer, I did want to risk it.

I have been feeling fine all this time, no concern and no lump. The following day I recieved a call from the hospital concerning the result, on the left breast there's seems to be cancer cell. This new was shocking and it stress me out. Fear was all over me, I asked, "God why me?" To be sure I scheduled biopsy and ultrasound. The result came out, positif cancer stadium 2.

Diagnozed with cancer made me feel as if I have been sentance to death. One of my aunt passed away from breast cancer. All I could do at that moment just cried. Fear was surrounding me. I felt hopeless, helpless, I know only God can help me.

I broke the news to my family and close friends as I requested them to pray for me. I made a promise to The Lord, if I survive I will testify of the greatness over my life. I know that God will not leave me nor forsake me.

The day after my diagnosis, there was a revival meeting of Pst Joel Osteen in Denver. His mom testified on how she was diagnozed with cancer stadium 4, all doctors thought there were nothing left to do as far as treatment. But against all odds she's over 80 years old and she still living. On Sunday service Pst Salmon, pray over me and declared that this will not be the end of me but it will raise me up to the next level.

My type of cancer is triple positive, which is a malignant type. Doctors say about 20 years ago this was a type of "Death Penalty". But since the discovery of Herceptin (breast cancer drug) has somewhat decreased death rates.

Before I underwent chemotherapy, several ministry friends from BIC Denver surprising me, they came to help me clean my house before chemotherapy. I would undergo 6 times with an interval of 3 weeks. Every time with 2 kinds of chemotherapy drugs and 2 kinds of antibodies. When I was about to get chemotherapy my BIC friends came to pray for me and also got me food delivery. When I was in the valley of darkness, my support system were there for me.

The effects of this chemotherapy were so strong, I lost so kuch weight, it shed my whole body, extreem pain on my back, I also experienced severe diarrhea for 2 days. Since taking Imodium also did not work, I went to the ER, the doctor checked whether there were infection/any bad reaction due to the medication. Apparently they found nothing wrong. After being given an infusion of saline, my diarrhea improved. That moment I cried, I said that my body could not take this chemo treament any longer.

At that time Rev. Paul Wijaya, Ms. Catherine and Rev. Handy came for service at BIC Denver. By Rev. Salmon & Mrs. Lanny Nanlohy, they were immediately driven from the airport to the University of Colorado Hospital to pray for me. Ms. Catherine shared a testimony where she also recovered from stage 4 cervical cancer. An extraordinary testimony that awakened my faith that nothing is impossible for God.

My mother also sent antioxidants from Japan that helped reduce the negative effects of chemo on my body. I got strong enough to continue chemotherapy. 2 Weeks after the first chemo my hair fell out, then I decided to shave my hair. I felt at the lowest point of my life. But I say Psalm 23: 4 "even though I walk through the darkest valley , I will fear not evil, for You are with me; Your rod and your staff, they comfort me ”.

Three weeks later, I underwent chemo session 2. The effect I experienced was not diarrhea but my heart rate was high above normal, so I went back into the ER for the second time. Praise God after infuseion my heart rate got down to normal. I am thankful for times like this, other than family, Pst Lanny Nanlohy often prayed for me through Whatsap as well as some other friends in Denver and in Indonesia supported me in prayer. Pst Lanny kept reminding me, to be grateful in all circumstances. She said, "Being greateful when in good times is easy, but being thankful when tribulation is very hard to do." Only God can enable me to be grateful.

Praise God when I had to go through chemo, God touch my boss so he allowed me to work from home. Some part of my work was transferred to my supervisor. Because of thisa I had plenty of time to pray, read the Bible, listen to the sermon through Youtube, and listen to songs of praise and worship. I read, record and speak God's Word about healing. "By His stripes I was healed". (Jer 17:14) Just as long as I touch His robe I am healed, (Mark 5:28) etc. I was very sure that illness did not come from God and that Jesus could heal me.

Because of the repeated history to ER after chemo, the doctor decided to schedule appointment for saline infusion the day after chemotherapy, so that I could go through it with minimum effects. On the 4th,5th,6th chemotherapy, my tongue felt bitter and the food tasted like metal. This cause the food to become unpleasant and increasingly difficult to eat, only sweet foods that did change taste. I tried to eat as much as I could, to gain strength also not to keepmy body weight. I realize that being able to eat and being able to taste delicious food is a gift from God.

After the 6th chemotherapy, I underwent MRI. According to the surgeon, the lump had shrunk. In January 2018 I underwent surgery, before undergoing Pdt. Salmon and Pst Lanny came to pray for me. Thank God the operation went well, whithin 23 hours I was allowed to go home. From MRI it did not show cancer, but during the operation the doctor still took some sample to be examined for certainty.

The next day the surgeon called me to tell me that the pathology did not find any cancer cells. Thanks God! I was declared cured. When I heard this happy news, my heart was overjoy because I knew God had given me an extended life.

I never stop giving thanks to God for my recovery, I also thank my husband who is faithful to accompany me, accompany me when I have to undergo chemotherapy and surgery. I am also grateful for the people whom God brought together Pst. Paul,Ms. Catherine and Rev. Handy to pray for me. Also to my extended family in Indonesia, friends that I cannot mention one by one, also my Senior Pastor Salmon and Pst Lanny Nanlohy who provide me full support. Without prayer support from friends and family, I would not be able to get through this storm. God will repay all of your kindness to me.